I Don't Want

I don't want

BY: KB © 11.9.14

I do not want to be loved

as much as I want to be understood

because if you understand me

then you'll know about all of who I am

you'd know that my fears don't really scare me they provide me with drive

the fears are the things that make me glad to be alive

you'd know that I'm painfully insecure

 but it's the fragility that exposes more of my inner core

it's the fragility in me that found the care and compassion in you

and feeds my drive even more

if you understand me then you would know that I’m led by my feelings

more often than not I'm an emotional wreck

overwhelmed by emotions because I am conflicted to see

that someone as beautiful as you could find anything worth loving in me

I do not want to be loved

as much as I want to be understood

because if you understood me, you'd know that I find struggle, passion, and delight in this life I live

if you understood me, you'd know that I have a lot of love to give