Matthew 7: 5-6 …5"
You hypocrite, first take the log out of your own eye, and then you will see
clearly to take the speck out of your brother's eye.6 "Do not give what is
holy to dogs, and do not throw your pearls before swine, or they will trample
them under their feet, and turn and tear you to pieces.
1 Timothy 2:3-5 …3 This is good and acceptable in the
sight of God our Savior, 4 who desires all men to be saved and to come to
the knowledge of the truth. 5 For there is one God, and one mediator also
between God and men, the man Christ Jesus,…
I have heard both of these passages of scripture repeatedly
for most of my life. I've heard them used in and out of the proper context over
a period of time. I most recently had my own experience with the passage of
Matthew.
I have to say that I am not always mindful of scripture. I
periodically practice the fine art of rationalization and justification and I
go deep with it. But for the most part I am straight forward with my “insanity”;
majority of family and friends will tell you that if I say I’m going to do
something you can best believe it will get done! With that being said, I was
upfront about what I was doing and what I wanted to happen….it was my will and
not God’s but I have to say I didn't hide or veil it in any way. Now, please
don’t get me wrong , I am by no means glorifying myself or my actions…wrong is
wrong…but I was so off into my stuff that I didn't grasp the entire situation;
I didn't look at the big picture. The situation blew up in a very big way
because I was off on my cloud asking God to honor something that He could not
and in the meantime I’m “casting my pearls.”
God was already dealing with my head and heart in the
situation but I overrode the conviction and did “that thing” any way….and now I’m
like FEMA accessing the self-inflicted damage. I get it Lord…my hypocrisy and double
minded approach to what I know to be true will NOT be blessed. I cannot serve
me and serve you as well…..as my Catholic friends pray “ I am heartily sorry
for having offended thee” my most humble
and sincere apologies to the victims who got caught my shrapnel spray…
Lessons learned: I cannot operate on self-will no matter how
honest I am about my intentions and actions.
I cannot expect others to respect my faith walk and
experience if they do not share the same set of beliefs and constructs.
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