Needy? Think about your choices BY: KB © 1.14.15

I’m on this “sharing” vibe at the moment. I've been sharing more about who I am as a person and what motivates me in my writings and spirituality; sure, I periodically shift focus but for the most part my writings have been about staying the course and what I am learning/ know about God….today is no different.

So, in the spirit of sharing, I grew up in a household of extreme domestic violence and as a result I suffer from a form of PTSD as well as some major character defects…I was a child with rage. I had intense anger and violence problems. I managed to get the violence under control but the anger, while I was no longer raging, I projected anger and I harbored intense resentments. Now, don’t get me wrong…I still have anger but it’s directed in a healthier outlet … I have a low tolerance for ignorance and people playing dumb. I have a very, very low tolerance for social injustices and people who benefit from it and play on it.

I went from being angry to being a quiet storm. I was very volatile…I didn't know what would set me off…so I would “flash” on people…which brings me to my point….a pic my cousin posted. This pic is soooooooooo very true for me and it is also what prompted my shift in focus and heart.

Matthew 4:1 -11  Then Jesus was led by the Spirit into the wilderness to be tempted by the devil. 2 After fasting forty days and forty nights, he was hungry. 3 The tempter came to him and said, “If you are the Son of God, tell these stones to become bread.”

4 Jesus answered, “It is written: ‘Man shall not live on bread alone, but on every word that comes from the mouth of God.”

5 Then the devil took him to the holy city and had him stand on the highest point of the temple. 6 “If you are the Son of God,” he said, “throw yourself down. For it is written:

“‘He will command his angels concerning you,
    and they will lift you up in their hands,
    so that you will not strike your foot against a stone.”

7 Jesus answered him, “It is also written: ‘Do not put the Lord your God to the test.”

8 Again, the devil took him to a very high mountain and showed him all the kingdoms of the world and their splendor. 9 “All this I will give you,” he said, “if you will bow down and worship me.”

10 Jesus said to him, “Away from me, Satan! For it is written: ‘Worship the Lord your God, and serve him only.”

11 Then the devil left him, and angels came and attended him.

My point?!!! The enemy appears when there is a lack….when we feel we’re most in need. Remember what I've been sharing and it’s been right in sync with the book by T.D. Jakes that I grabbed over the Christmas holiday, that the enemy uses us to destroy us. He does so by utilizing our egos or our insecurities….no matter which venue the end is the same, THE END

What are you in need of?

How ya livin’?!