Sometimes in life you just have to learn things the hard way……both
my grandma and my parents used to constantly tell me “A hard head makes for a
soft ass.” The older I get the more and
more this becomes true…..I get hung up on my chronological status and assume that
people know things, should know things , I know more than I know or I assume things
and then justify my actions all the while knowing that what I am saying or
doing is going to plant its foot firmly in my a**.
This has been abundantly clear in the majority of my “situationships”,
not relationships, mind you……I say situationships because I have come to
realize that I am working on all cylinders desperately trying not to reenact
the dysfunction of my parents dynamics and past missteps thereby creating my
own funky pattern of repetition. The
real trouble is that I usually connect with someone who is doing the exact same
thing but is better at disguising the behavior. When I come out of the newness
and the euphoria and realize that I’m in the pattern I usually over correct and
the person that I’ve attached myself to realizes that that they have also been
exposed….resulting in epic implosion.
I’ve taken some time to learning me and what I truly need
and want in life….not saying I won’t stumble from time to time but I’ll bet my
last dollar that you won’t find me in a “situationship” settling and
compromising with nothing in the way of reciprocity.
Are you stuck in a pattern of behavior? Do you know yourself well enough to break the dysfunctional behavior? Are you willing to do the self work? It can be an arduous task.....may I suggest you take a look at the AA/NA step 4.......don't kid yourself baby, we're all in recovery from something!
How ya livin'?
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