Football Fanatics Go Beyond the Black & White Of the Ref’s Shirts BY; KB 2.8.16

Let me just say that no aspects of racism and bigotry catch me off guard. I’m shocked when it shows up in the words and actions of people I associate with…..let me tell you…there are no greater showcases for racism and bigotry than politics and sports.

Let’s take the Super Bowl…it was obvious that both black and white hate Cam Newton…blacks because he won’t assume the role of the grateful docile negro. His talent, his braggadocio, his exuberance for the game he loves has somehow been interpreted as a slight to whites. He’s a talented player who knows he’s talented and he won’t celebrate the way whites and subjugated blacks want him to….How is Cam any different from Deion Sanders (Prime Time)? Didn’t hear too much about him. Sports enthusiasts, bigots and racists allowed a Thomas “Hollywood” Henderson? He admitted to sniffing cocaine on the sidelines in his oxygen mask….all you ever heard about him was people hated his outlandish fashion sense. Now let’s talk about football busts like Brian Bozworth…the crazy haircuts and sideline antics but his talent in college was a result of steroid injections that also killed his career. Let’s talk the insanity that is Johnny “football” Manziel…domestic violence, an addict out of control, and a major team distraction…very little press….then we look at Ray Rice, Ray Carruth,  Ray Lewis, Shawne Merriman, Andre Reed,…tons of press on their sordid details…..but you don’t hear too much about Alex Smith’s drunk driving, Joe Thiesman having his wife and mistress show up at the hospital when his leg was broken on televised game….

You don’t hear about how much time and money was utilized by the NFL to cover up CTE and how their legal machine damn near destroyed a black doctor’s career. You don’t hear about how much money goes to breast cancer every year when they throw a few pink garment in the game for the month of October….I never knew, until a couple of days ago, that the NFL was tax exempt. This is the same entity that has the power to make and break a city’s economy based on the greed of owners…case and point the Oakland Raiders…

Now, getting back to my point on racism, bigotry and my friends….I am preconditioned and predisposed to listen for the subtleties…saying things like He’s athletic -…excuse me isn’t he supposed to be an elite athlete? He’s in the pros! He’s brash and too outspoken….he’s been around yes men and future leeches  telling him how great he is…all the while waiting to capitalize on the greatness. Why isn’t he allowed to believe what he’s told, what is written about him? What is really being said is that people are afraid that he might wake up and interrupt their cash flow so he must present a certain way so that everyone can continue to get paid (sounds like slavery to me…)

What’s my point here?!!! We all love sports…it’s a way for us all to be “armchair active” either in the sport or be fake moguls in fantasy football…but we all need to look at the level of hypocrisy, greed and dirty dealings that keep the games going…

My Thought On Black History BY; KB 2.2. 16

Wow, so I happened to catch the tail end of Dr. Phil yesterday – the show was on the OJ miniseries. I don’t know who said it but I overheard one of the panelists say that Mark Fuhrman says the LAPD trained him to think as a racist….I heard that statement and completely lost all my cool. You can believe that “ish” if you want to….racism stems from a deep seated belief system….so if anything the LAPD enhanced what was already there.

We are ALL predisposed to some thinking that our parents taught us and their parents taught them….when we know better or learn better we respond accordingly. I have heard stories of white friends using the word NIGGER…one of my sisters friends did it and then told my sister she doesn’t see her as one. My questions are what is your line of demarcation? What defines that epithet for you?  How do you proceed with a friendship knowing that this ugliness is part of your belief system….and the sad part of it all is that this was a person from church…..you can talk and sing about Goad and love but the word NIGGER flow just as free.

My equally irksome experiences involve the PC people who will never come right out and say anything blatantly derogatory but all their actions and carefully scripted talk lets you know where they are coming from. I also have major angina with people who are so friggin’ liberal and understanding but still enjoy sipping from the cup of white privilege. To me it’s the equivalent of an “uncle Tom”  you know better but you just don’t want to make waves to mess up your good thing.

Black snobs and elitists…oh no I’m not leaving you out….some of y’all are brainwashed into believing that home ownership and designer labels are an entre…..check your mortgage rates and then check the times and statutes under the money lending…..I’m willing to bet some slick talking broker snapped you up under a minority lending deal which spells profit for a lending institution and that same entity will kick you to the curb with the quickness should their little housing bubble burst. 

There are many of you dedicated to the Greek community than you are to your ethnic community…..like the old joke goes…what do you call a black man or woman with a PhD? Dr. NIGGER….just ask Ben Carson! Always identified as Black Republican candidate or Black Neurosurgeon…..

Remember this from the movie Malcolm X :   Malcolm X: I must emphasize at the out start that the Honorable Elijah Muhammad is not a politician. So I'm not here this afternoon as a Republican, nor as a Democrat; not as a Mason, nor as an Elk; not as a Protestant, nor a Catholic; not as a Christian, nor a Jew; not as a Baptist, nor a Methodist; in fact, not even as an American, because if I was an American, the problem that confronts our people today wouldn't even exist.

So I have to stand here today as what I was when I was born: A black man.

Before there was any such thing as a Republican or a Democrat, we were black.

Before there was any such thing as a Mason or an Elk, we were black.

Before there was any such thing as a Jew or a Christian, we were black people!

In fact, before there was any such place as America, we were black!

And after America has long passed from the scene, there will still be black people.

I'm gonna tell you like it really is. Every election year these politicians are sent up here to pacify us! They're sent here and setup here by the White Man!

This is what they do!

They send drugs in Harlem down here to pacify us!

They send alcohol down here to pacify us!

They send prostitution down here to pacify us!

Why you can't even get drugs in Harlem without the White Man's permission!

You can't get prostitution in Harlem without the White Man's permission!

You can't get gambling in Harlem without the White Man's permission!

Every time you break the seal on that liquor bottle, that's a Government seal you're breaking!

Oh, I say and I say it again, ya been had!

Ya been took!

Ya been hoodwinked!

Bamboozled!

Led astray!

Run amok!

This is what He does....

Wake the hell up!!!!! We’ve got to get this right and come together to work for the greater good of man or perish as individuals remaining a collective of fools. An oxymoron in stupidity

A Tale of Two Cultures BY: KB 1 30 16

Well, well, well, chickens have come to roost yet again….people are trying to act like it’s not a ‘Frisco reality but it is! The hippie dippy flower children of yesteryear that slept black in college are now the covert pc talking racists of today and they are raising openly racist children.

Let’s talk about some real adult shit out in the open…..I’m not going to try to hide my disdain or talk around my dislike of entitlement bullshit and white privilege. So let’s get real and talk about the scandal at St. Ignatius College Prep in San Francisco. You know the one that folks are busy trying to cover up like at cat in a litter box. In case you don’t know or haven’t heard read:  

http://www.sfgate.com/bayarea/article/San-Francisco-students-suspended-over-racist-6790881.php

A true “Dear White People” moment.

http://www.sfgate.com/bayarea/article/San-Francisco-students-suspended-over-racist-6790881.php

(I personally like the story blurb “some black students attended”)  They should be suspended as well and then someone needs to get with their asses to discuss internalized racism…a lifetime of ostracism  from both sides…a life in the middle of nowhere!

Parents are upset that their little cherubs have been suspended when they really should be expelled…They’re concerned about their chances for college…screw that!!!! What about their moral character? They’re in a prestigious, private, Catholic school; ambassadors for the school and the faith and morals ….so what are the parents saying they want to pay for the education and let their kids continue to be ass----- as long as they get into the college of their choice? Colleges where they will no doubt hone their racism in fraternities, sororities and secret societies…growing up garnering memberships into exclusive country clubs and moving anywhere that has a limited number of people of color.

Let’s talk about a little known story that happened a few years earlier at the same high school. A black athlete had CONSENSUAL sex with a white student…now, both being young and dumb allowed themselves to be videotaped. The boy, bragging of his conquest showed the video to a few friends. People talked. Parents and school found out. Now the parents of the girl had the young man expelled stating that their daughter’s reputation was destroyed. THE SEX WAS CONSENSUAL. She gets to remain in school and he has to find a school that will keep his athleticism on track to be recognized by a college. Some real To Kill A Mockingbird / OJ / Tiger Woods vindictive shit but no one seems to want to talk about that incident because it will show a definitive pattern on how this school deals with race.

S.F. Super Bowl BUST!!!!! By: KB 1.21.16

I want you to think about this story as you gather with friends and family at the local sports bar to celebrate  and cheer for your favorite team on the 50^th anniversary of the Super Bowl ……

I’ve been working with a cousin on the East Coast sharing video to expose the dubious complicity of the NFL and the city of San Francisco. Now don’t get me wrong San Francisco is a beautiful city but years of political corruption and cronyism has definitely changed the vision and beauty of the city. The days “Summer Of Love” and “Gay Mecca” are long gone and we now have the city of Conspicuous Consumerism.com.

The city of San Francisco began to erode when Ronald Reagan closed all the long term mental health facilities; one swipe of his pen created a mentally ill homeless population. Reagan also created a health and housing crisis with his steadfast refusal to acknowledge the AIDS epidemic. On a local level political favor mongering and cronyism also created an internal weakness in the city’s political infrastructure. I can’t tell you how long it’s been since I’ve seen any movies or television shows filmed in the city (this is important to note because television and movies generated revenues and created jobs.)

Fast forward to 2015 and 2016….Mayor Ed Lee has sold the city’s soul to the dot com devil. Companies like Twitter, Google, Zynga, Uber, Adobe and Yahoo have been given massive tax breaks to headquarter themselves in the city. I bet you didn’t know that the first 3 floors of the San Francisco Chronicle, a onetime powerful Hearst newspaper, is now occupied by Yahoo! The overpaid coders and techies have now created a serious housing crisis…it’s a buyers’ market…name your price. A burnt out “tear down” house just recently sold for over 400k. So, what do the politicians do? They create a craptacular system for new buildings and construction…each new unit must have so many units of “below market” units for “affordable” housing. Sounds fair right? WRONG!!!! If the market is over inflated what’s the below value? It’s double talk….and families are being evicted because of greed and consumerism….yeah we need more bars, coffee shops and condos that no one can afford. Oh that family is there….Ellis Act or no fault eviction!

Now, let me get to the Super Bowl… the game is not even being played in the city because the old Candlestick pack is not a construction site for condos and a strip mall. The football team is now in the city of Santa Clara who has recently declared that they will not pay 1 cent for hosting the game. The cost is solely on the city of San Francisco.  For all you die hard Niner’s fans in the Mission think about this as you watch your friends and neighbors being displaced….cheer about your tax dollars going down the drain for something that is NOT in your best interest.  The Super Bowl is a completely different ball game when you’re homeless in San Francisco.

http://www.sfgate.com/bayarea/matier-ross/article/S-F-mayor-Homeless-have-to-leave-the-6465209.php

http://sfist.com/2015/11/12/super_bowl_50_committee_requesting.php

http://www.sfexaminer.com/mayor-lee-vows-improved-homeless-response-with-homeless-department/

http://kron4.com/2015/11/24/graphic-video-only-on-kron-homeless-woman-gives-birth-at-bus-stop-in-san-francisco/

I have been video documenting a growing homeless encampment along the route to the freeway in hopes that my cousin a journalist can light a fire under someone to expose the fraud perpetrated by both the NFL and the city of San Francisco.

http://kron4.com/2015/11/24/graphic-video-only-on-kron-homeless-woman-gives-birth-at-bus-stop-in-san-francisco/

I want my city back. I want to know that I can afford to live here. I want to know that my options are not limited because some entitled dot com “f” is leaching off the land.

Sometimes the best advice you could give is your silence BY: KB 1.19.16

My tv was on for the 3 day weekend but my mind was elsewhere….I watched the NFL playoff games but I was really focused on thoughts on life and just how truly blessed I am. My family was seriously worried about the results of the cat scan – the didn’t say much but the pressured silence and minimal questions spoke for itself. They were elated when I shared that no other procedures were necessary ….then the questions came; mom just unloaded her tension…I could hear it in her words. I had to say “what was the worst that the news could be?” I’ve already dealt with cancer and I have lived on my terms ever since so if it was “bad news” to the family…I would continue on business as usual. Don’t get me wrong I still feel like there’s so much more to do but I know that I’m working things out one day at a time…walking in faith, being true to me and praising God for the blessings and lessons.

The other thing that I discovered during my “disconnect” is that I absolutely HATE to hear people harangue and harp on trivial matters….

I got a call that just ravaged and savage my spirit and my ear…I finally had to just tell the person  to shut the hell up and listen for a minute. I pointed out that they could have the soundest advice ever and that their point could be impenetrably salient but have they ever asked themselves if the recipient EVER asked for their help or advice?  I had to ask the person what’s their payoff in feeling like they have to put on a cape and rescue? I had to ask the person have they ever just sat and listened without feeling the need to respond. I had to tell the person that my having to listen to their complaints about others is getting old. I also had to point out to the individual that they are keeping tabs….counting up what they feel that they are owed for their service….noting that they got “paid” when the recipients said “Thank you…” and that rattling off what they do for others is tacky….like the saying goes “don’t eat with those who will brag about feeding you”  Now, I know we have all done it from time to time when we feel slighted but when do you recognize that you’re speaking from some level of wounded pride and bruised ego?

My grandma always said “don’t let the right hand know what the left hand is doing…” I get it. I don’t let everyone in my business. If I do something for someone it’s between me and them. If I get angry about something that person said or did….I check myself first to see why I’m angry. I will also clearly point out to people  - don’t give me advice unless I ask for help; that doesn’t mean you can’t share your experiences but I didn’t ask for a lecture on “SHOULDS”  it’s my life and my lessons to learn..

How ya livin’?

A Brief Autobiography BY: KB 1.5.16

REAL TALK from KB:  To me, it’s the epitome of hypocrisy to call someone out on their stuff only to conveniently have the disability to be blind to your own...with that being said I’m going to be a bit transparent.

I’ve been out and proud since the age 25…not saying that I didn’t know I was gay; I’ve known since about age 5 or 6 I just didn’t have the vocabulary to articulate it. My parents knew, but we did the dance of denial partnered with social norms. To be honest I don’t know how I made it through the years without losing my freakin’ mind; thank God I made it out because I know too many gay people who are struggling with inner conflict and looking for acceptance from people who are too ignorant and stubborn to give it.

Let me discuss the ignorance for a moment….there are the factions of my people  (family, friends and acquaintances) that hold on to the school of thought that my same gender loving life was a result of a tumultuous and contentious relationship with my father. I laugh at that because I knew I was gay long before I realized that my father was an ill-bred selfish ass; as a matter of fact he had a gay sister who was not raised with him (they had the same dad and didn’t connect until later in life)….so no, I shoot that theory down but I thank you for sharing it. I don’t hate men….I have many male friends and family that I embrace and socialize with …I’ll stand shoulder to should and fight with/for many of them; many of them have seen me do it. (my youth on the Eastside of Buffalo….Sycamore playground and across Bailey Avenue – y’all know. My cousins Dave and Ben – rockin’ and sockin’ fools a Coleman playground – all the fights for folks using the N-word).

Another theory is that I want to be a man. Hell it’s hard enough to be a gay Black woman in this world why would I want to co-op on a Black man’s struggle?…hell! They have their own set of problems. I am a woman! I love the softer sides of me. I love the fact that my thought processes are “gender fluid” and I can see both sides of a situation and react accordingly – I am blessed to have the Native American concept of two-spirits.

Last but by no means least there are the people who River Dance on my last good nerve…..the conservative Christians who have a judgment for me and get all ass hurt when I call out their hypocrisy…to you I say that the condemnation and constrictions of YOUR religion is all the hell I need to see and I’ll gladly swim the River Styx to avoid the beating that you wrap in the gospel. If I am going to hell….we can finish our conversation there because you’ll be right there with me for the ways you address me and call it love.

I have known love, true love, twice in my life….the first time to the lovely individual who put up with all my immaturity and lunacy as  I discovered what it means to be gay in this big ol’ harsh world. Too bad I didn’t recognize that she was struggling with her own demons…..one of them was controlling and taming other people’s. The second, man oh man, had the patience of a saint…..I am a moody, cerebral, passionate and compassionate monster 99% of the time the other 1% is spent eating and sleeping. Time with this person was magical….it was like watching God knit a snowflake…and just like that, 16 years seemed like 16 seconds….the snowflake melted. Tomorrow is not promised.

Here I am 3 years away and just beginning my thaw….starting my new year off on positives and will continue to move in that direction….some of y’all won’t go or can’t go with me….that’s cool I thank you for the love and the purpose that you’ve provided; do you and be the best you that you can be……but please, by all means continue to ask yourselves 

How ya livin’?

REAL TALK from KB: Good morning y’all…..I told you earlier in the new year (I know it’s only the 4^th) that I was going to go hard in the paint…so today is no different.

Today I’m going to discuss the complacency and lethargy of the “religious” (I can’t say apathy because I know people care but they have been deluded into thinking that Christianity means exclusion and passivity.) The church and church people have given a poor account of themselves and the representation has pretty much alienated the younger generation.

I once mentioned that a simple question stuck in my craw for a very long time and gave me major cause to pause and think. The question was: would you be a Christian if your ancestral slave master had not introduced you to his religion? Then I was hit with how can a slave and a master pray to the same God and both expect their prayers to be answered?

The Bible (which I still embrace) says study to show thyself approved (2 Timothy 2:15)…so me being me…I studied! I studied Buddhism; I studied Islam; and I studied the practices of the Native Americans as well as the Yoruba.

I am amazed at the number of the African American Christians that don’t see a hint of any of the practices in their history, theology and religious services. I’m shocked and appalled by the number of African Americans who can embrace the sacrifices in the Old Testament but call the African practice of Santeria and Voodoo as witchcraft…..who told you the practices were evil or against God? You can belief in a God of 3 persons but can’t wrap your mind around something being called a spirit. You can go a la carte (picking and choosing what parts you choose to embrace) with your Christianity but call a devout brother or sister an extremist or a terrorist.  (Can I ask what religion doesn’t have some form of martyrdom?)

I still very much embrace God…I believe what I’ve seen and how He has manifested himself in my life. He has shown me great mercy and kept me when I didn’t have the wherewithal or sense to maintain….I just have separated myself from what “some” folks call Christianity..hate, bigotry, racism and exclusion are NOT Christian values.

John 13:34   A new commandment I give unto you, That ye love one another; as I have loved you, that ye also love one another.

This verse did not just apply to the 12 disciples………

How ya livin’?